Hey all (: Admittedly it has been awhile and I apologise to all my readers, especially those who have asked me why I haven't been updating. Well, the reason for my prolonged absence is that, I decided to take some time off blogging, to clear my head and maybe get fresh perspectives on things that I couldn't have seen before. Just to simply take some time, to explore my thoughts and immerse myself in new experiences.

We often complain about how unfair the world is, and how life has not been as kind to us as how it has been to others. Or how no matter how hard we try, we are not rewarded for our efforts, when someone who is not even trying has been rewarded for no particular reason at all.

Lately, I have been feeling that way. & it began to seem to me that no matter how very hard I tried, I would never be rewarded, I would never be enough. So between a few tears and thoughts, I found a little spark somewhere inside of me that helped me get through the night and wake up in the morning.

Maybe life is fair. Maybe, its not that I wouldn't get rewarded for how hard I try, and how much effort I put in. Maybe, just maybe, I was already rewarded, just not in the way that I had expected, or at the time when I expected it.

Take the example of a daughter. She hasn't always been examplary as a student or a child, but she has grown out of that. Changed, and kept persevering through all the doubts that everyone had in her. Made proper friends who cared far more about her well-being, kicked old habits and kept in tune with a new schedule. She did this all in hopes that her mother would see her not even as a daughter, not even as a perfect child, but simply as a decent person.

And after all that trying, after all that effort, things between her mother and her remained exactly the same.

& It is at this point where she would feel that life is simply unfair. That no matter how hard she had tried and tries to continue trying, all the effort would just mean nothing. And she would get so frustrated and upset and guarded from everything that she is seconds away from giving up everything. To just stop trying and go back to her old ways because changing didn't get her anywhere.

Well, if you reading this, are feeling the way she feels. Then listen to this.

This same daughter, in the process of her change, has made friends who she knows she would not lose for the rest of her life. Friends who would die for her, friends who would make sure she gets back home safe, friends who would appreciate each and every ounce of effort she puts in to making herself a better person and getting where she wants to.

This same daughter, in the process of change, no matter how painful has learnt lessons that no other experience could have taught her. She has learnt the concept of self-value, of ambition, of faith. She has learnt to give herself another chance at getting to where she wants to be, she has learnt to channel her strengths in the right directions.

And in at the end of the story, even if she could not prove to her mother that she is a decent person, what she did get in reward was simply priceless. And all she has around her will always remind her of how far she has come, where she has been, and that she is going to where she has always wanted to be.

I guess, through the story, what I am trying to say is, maybe life is fair, and you do get what you give, and what goes around does come back around. Maybe life is fair, just not in the ways we so often expect it to be.

Till next time, takecare all. (: