Hey all, it has been a good week so far. It is absolutely great to be back in school (: I would assume its the sense of purpose that I get from all the assignments and also the mere fact that I am back here in the comfort of school, delving into the depths of what I plan to be drowning in for the rest of my life. Not exactly the prettiest way to put it, but you know I mean beautifully.

So a few days back, I was in the middle of a text conversation when a spark of thought errupted in my mind. I would think that what I choose to blog about this week would be somewhat applicable to everyone, at least at one point of their lives or another.

We often tell ourselves or each other, that we want go someplace, and run away from things. Just escape from the not so cherry blossom feelings at heart, and the convoluted thoughts in mind. But that lead me to reflect and question myself, what is it really that I want to escape so badly, and who is it that has trapped me against my will?

Then I slowly began to understand that, it was me. We often put up walls around ourselves, with probably the intention or percieved intention of keeping others out, and protecting ourselves. But we often forget that there are 2 sides to the wall, and just as others cannot enter, we too have trapped ourselves in our own four walls.

Ironically enough, it is most likely that it is these same four walls we find ourselves trying to escape. With chisel, hammer, catapult, boulders and any other form of ammunition you can think of you try to crumble these walls. Well, in less medival terms, ammunition could be reffering to distractions, work, food, or anything that would constitute as aid to this "running away" concept.

However, after going through some of the things that I have gone through, I have come to realise that pelting these walls and thrashing them down to the ground does not solve my issues, and doesn't help me understand myself better as a person.

Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that one should strive to not ever build walls and barriers. Because both you and I know how simply inevitable that is, that its simple human nature to put up a fortress against possible attack.

But what I am saying is that, maybe one should respect the reasons why that wall was put up in the first place. Think about it, you are the one who layered those bricks one over the other, there had to be a reason. And instead of hurling anger at the wall that you created, maybe understanding why its there, and respecting both yourself and your reasons, could be a better option.

Thereafter, this so-called need or feeling of the need to run away or escape, would not really come into play. Because you would soon realise that, you had a reason to put those walls up, and you did. And now, you have a reason to take them down, and you will. With the same amount of respect you had for yourself and your reasons for both.

I guess in a nutshell, with doing that, you are not escaping, you are just having the courage to open the door that you closed, to take a breath of fresh air.

I hope that made sense, and I hope you have had a good week.

Till next time, take care all. (: