Hey all (: Firstly I would like to apologise terribly for the late entry. I know its already Monday now, and I was suppose to have this up yesterday. I feel so bad, and if it is any consolation, I am typing this on an empty tummy cause you mean more to me than lunch. (: Please, do forgive me sweeties.

This week was relatively better compared to the last.Then again, after the amount of heartache and fear last week, I don't think anything worse would come by anytime soon. Or so I hope. It has been a pretty relaxed week of school, in terms of lessons or how every one of them seems to be getting cancelled. However I must say, that in no way were the DADP students relaxed. Deadlines.

On a more personal note, some of the things that happened this week got me thinking. Despite my discoveries this week, I must say, that there is still somuch I don't understand, and I am still trying to accept.

This week, I learnt that, we are all damaged. No matter how we handle it, we are all damaged. Some of us divert that damage onto others, which in turn hurts them. Some of us take it all in till we explode, and some of us let it heal. And its probably a very difficult thing to let go off the anger and negativity when someone hurts you, for no logical reason at all.

But this week made me think, that maybe there is a reason why that someone hurt me. And it may not be a very good reason, or a logical one, but it could very well be the only reason she knows, because she too is damaged, just like me. And hating her back and hurting her in spite, would not help any of us heal and grow, it just tears open wounds and infects them.

Nobody ever said forgiving was easy. It will never be easy, to put down you ego, put down your anger and ammunition and walk away. Well, I am not walking away. I've hung up my guns, and now I shall help you put yours away too. And I choose to believe that a better ending will come out of all this, out of not taking the easy way out and blasting each other.

New Year Resolution 2:

I will think the situation thoroughly through before I react to it.

Its been a better week, and it will only get better.
Lastly, a very properous Chinese New Year to all my readers. (: May you have a good time, with good food and the people you love around you.

Till next week, have a great one ahead. (: